deep thoughts

laying alone in the dark
house quiet and still
i wait
SHIT WHAT WAS THAT
oh the furnace
what's that I smell
is there fire
oh stupid mind be still
alive i lay
my hands cross my chest
as if i lay at gods rest
but here i am
conscious as ever
thinking what disease
what disaster
i will surely soon endeavor
but wait
what about my son
he surely keeps me alive
believe it or not
he is why i survive
that truck should have killed me
on I-35
but it did not
so here i still lay
my heart beating in flutter
wondering what more torture
my mind may uncover
if only i had a switch
i could shut my mind off
but here i still lay
forever in thought
........HLR